Friday, January 10, 2014

{Five Minute Friday} See

In the wee hours of the morning, the sun not even greying the horizon, and I hear him singing. His baby song composed on the spot, holding his feet and singing singing singing into the dark. It's too early, much too early for this.

In the darkness I stumble to his room, fumble for the lamp. And still he's talking to himself and all raspberries and song. The light goes on and he stops and looks around.

Then he sees me.

The instant the blue eyes that look just like mine behold my face his entire countenance lights up. He gives me the chin-tuck shy smile of his father. Oh, and all of a sudden it doesn't matter what time it is. It doesn't matter that this new mama is bone tired and just wants to be wrapped in a cocoon of warm on this winter night.

It's that smile, that gummy grin that says "I see you, mama." It's the pure joy that washes over his body when he beholds me, a bleary eyed twenty three year old who was given this little person to shepherd and to guard. And even though I want to sleep, I pick him up and hold him against me. "I see you, too, sweetheart. And I love you more than you know." 

1 comment:

  1. Oh man! You are getting me all choked up!! You've so wonderfully articulated that transition from "ugh, not now" to the joy renewing. I think God gave them such brilliant smiles for this very purpose. ;) Thank you for sharing!
    {Coming over from FMF}